Past and present.

I hate his past. Really hate it the most. But i don’t know about his present. Am i going to be hating it as well? His past is full with fooled. Girls and also ex’s. Full with some negative things rather then positive ones. Mind me, this is not about what he has done. I mean, yes. He did those things but it is not what i meant. What  i meant is that i hate the way he is back then. Back then even before i personally know him. He is way to lean on things. WAAAAYY to lean. Even his friends backstab him and it’s alright with him. So, I hate his past but not all of it. There are most of the bad past has been layered by the good things he had done. And i hope he’d do the same while he’s with me.

But, I hate mine too. Well, some part of it. The part where …… Nah, I don’t want to talk about it here. To those who knew me, they knew why I hate my past so much and specifically referring about ‘that’ guy.

So, i hate both of us from the past. If you ever know me back then, you’d probably do not want to even enter my territory. I was different before. :)

You are lucky enough,tho. Cause that past teach me on how to behave today. How to think today and how to act,today.

Communication.

Communication is the key of everything possible. :) Without communication, it is a dead end. Who wants a dead end? I don’t really want it but sometimes, dead end is indeed,good.

If you are in love with your boyfriend, communication is the main thing to keep your relationship going on. Avoiding conversation especially the critical ones, will lead you to be in you own imaginary love life. Why do i say imaginary? It is because, once you are in a fight without any make up conversation, you will tend to imagine the things that your partner will do. See the key word here? IMAGINE. You will be keep on guessing and keep on saying words like ‘maybe,who cares..’ and it shows that you are not 100% knows what your partner is currently doing.

What am I blabbering here? Oh.Must be the effects of this flu medicine. Sigh.

Love is a battlefield.

‘We are young.Heartache to heartache we stand.No promises no demands.Love is a battlefield.’ I listen to this song in 13 going on 30 (if I’m not mistaken) movie starring Jennifer Garner. A very sweet and romantic but yet very impossible to be happening. ;)

Love is a battlefield. Yes it is. I totally agreed. Being is love is like you are equipped and ready. Your weapons are on you hands and are in a ready mode. Being in love excites everything around your world. Even a tiny bits of thing that looks normal,are abnormal to you. You fight with your own strength and most likely you will never give up. Believe me, no one will give up on love, ever. Once you said you are giving up, actually you are not ready yet with your armour. Get your gears done and you are in the battlefield of love again. The word battlefield here didn’t just give the meaning of wars and hatred. Sometimes, it means you are in a battlefield of saving your love life, or you are just in a battlefield of ‘LOVE’ and you just can’t let it out of your mind.

Being or falling in love are at one state where ALL of the people must have been in their outmost and outrageous life. Without love, i don’t think that there’s much that they can do. Not just love to their boyfriend/girlfriend but to best friends, families, God, country, other people, civilization, food and drinks and more. Love is really really universal. Talking about love doesn’t mean THE love. You know the ‘a boy and a girl’ love. Love is everything that we need in life. In order to stay alive, we must love ourselves first,right? So, love is something that could actually get us where we are today. Love is the greatest teacher of all time. Love is true, love is pure and love is everything.

Love your love before it’s too late. Perhaps, treat your love today What love? Anything! :)

<3 all my readers out there!

i-City!

Went to i-city today with Mas,Kat and her ‘beaufriend’ (boyfriend), Amir. Wow.This place are full with neon trees and lights everywhere.Kinda eye sickening at first tho cause to many colors. But it was BEAUTIFUL! :) Caught some pictures. Thanks to Mr. Amir for being the photographer of the night! :D

Here are some pictures that we took! Enjoy!

P/S: I love you.Irfan.

I miss my busuk. :(

I really miss my busuk today.Sigh.He went to Singapore to attend some Air Show.Yesterday, I contacted Maxis for him to activate his roaming calls. Once activated, i SMSed him,telling him that he can start to use his roaming in 2 hours time and he needed to fax his passport copy to Maxis later.

Ah.Today he only SMSes me once.That was at 7:19am this morning.And then,no more SMSes from him up until now.I understand,he can’t SMS me that much.I already tell myself this.So,I am not that shocked.Although I look like i am kinda please and happy but actually I am not.But hey,who cares?He cares? No i guess. He will be in my position when I am going to Germany later this month.He will know how suffer i am to be waiting at home while i am kinda having fun there. He will feel the suffer that I am suffering right now. Life is karma. I really believe in that. :)

Above all that, I miss my Irfan.

Stalks.

I love stalking people’s profile at Facebook.Lagi susah nak masuk the profile,lagi tu la i suka nak stalk.haha. :) But don’t get me wrong, aku tak stalk profile kawan2 aku.Dah derang kawan aku,buat ape aku nak stalk kan? So,aku stalk profile orang yang aku benci,orang yang buat kawan aku sakit hati,orang yang memang menyusahkan aku selama ni,kadang2 ex ex kawan2 aku ke,ex bf aku ke,ex aku (opps! Tak kot yang tu.haha). Sape-sape je la yang aku rasa aku nak stalk.Aku tengok,satu satu ape yang terjadi kat derang selama ni and then aku buat kesimpulan sendiri.haha. :P

Aku ni bahaya jugak kan? LOL. Tapi,aku akan buat kerja bodoh tu time aku memang tak de kerja nak buat.Stakat ni,aku hanya stalk my.jobstreet.com je.sebab nya aku nak cari kerja.haha. :P Aku dah apply kat area2 PJ,TTDI,Subang dengan Shah Alam. Kenapa Shah Alam,besides Irfan duduk kat Shah Alam,maybe aku pun akan pindah ke Subang this year so aku cari la skali kat Shah Alam. (ye ke aku pindah subang ni?ye ke?skali putrajaya.mati aku~) haha. :P

Anyways,harin Irfan ke Singapore. Aww~ Aku keseorangan selama 3 hari. Hurmp~ Tak pe lah.Harini je masalah handphone saja.Sampai aku naik bosan dah dengan handphone.Lantak la if you wanna sms me,you just sms me.If not,you don’t have to.Dah terbiasa sudah. :) Mau call,call saja.Tak mau,tak perlu.Hehe.

I miss you my sayang busuk! :(

Don’t forget my ole ole.Hihi. :D